Sunday, 30 December 2018

2019 GOALS

I'm one of those people that love to see the calendar change and I do like to use it as a mini fresh-start or an internal, "right, I'm gonna start over." type thing. It feels good and I think we shame people for doing it but often it's a really great way to trick your mind into thinking that something new is starting. I want to do a lot in 2019, but here are a few of the ones that I am prioritising for my health and happiness!

In the past few years, I have done numerous driving lessons! In 2013, then I stopped to go to uni. Again in 2018, and then I stopped. For various reasons, I just keep stopping and I end up wasting my money.

Right now, I live at home and work in London.... So to be honest, I'm just not motivated to drive right now because I know that I would be unlikely to buy a car and don't feel the need to drive where I live. If I need to go somewhere, there are 3+ cars in our family and my Mum or brother will just take me along to the shop with them when they go. Also, Aldi is right next to the train station where I live,  so grabbing food after work doesn't take much effort. I do want to get my licence though simply because I know that one day I will need a car. So 2019 is the year to do it...

I felt incredibly pressured to join a gym and attend fitness classes by my ex, who used to say that he didn't want a "fat girlfriend" -  I don't know why he thought that saying that would inspire me to go to the gym and feel even more self-conscious, but hey. I think 2019 might be the year that I attend a class.. even just once a week. When 95% of my day is spent sitting, I do want to feel more active! It's amazing how you are inspired to do things when someone stops telling you to do something constantly and belittling you if you don't. It's as if I'm making the decision for me, and not for someone else. It feels great.

This goes hand in hand with the post above, but I haven't quite felt myself since last year. It's really easy to slip into a shell of yourself when someone is continuously telling you that you're not slim enough for them. I think that now that situation is over, I'm finally realising exactly how I can heal and be happy in myself. Just be.

I have stretch marks (which I actually don't mind anymore).
A few spots.
And you know what, sometimes the ends of my hair are dry!

But I'm a real person with real feelings and I deserve love from someone that won't care about those things, but I think that it begins with yourself. The inner you. And in hand with that, changing something doesn't make you a bad person. I have plans to get lip fillers soon and I definitely want laser hair removal this year. Does that mean I hate my body? Am I less worthy because I choose to change something? I quite like the saying "You do you, gurl". If we want to hit the gym 4 times a week, cool. If we want to get 2ml filler on our cheekbones.. also cool! There isn't some special measurement ruler to being worthy of love and acceptance.

I won't lie, Instagram is getting me down a bit lately. My reach is lower than ever and I'm struggling to grow my following. And we wonder why people resort to bots. *eye roll* I know that we're all struggling but I think maybe it's my content. It's everywhere at the minute with no theme - but I find themes restrictive.. it's a catch 22. The most beautiful feeds are always ones of people who don't work 9-5 - and comparing their lovely 1pm daylight photos in coffee shops to your kinda messy selfie at 6:22pm outside the train station.. well, it's not as cute when you only have weekends to take nice photos - which is to be expected. When you work, it's difficult to get nice photos as you're busy 24/7, the lighting will be off and god forbid you get home after the tragic London commute and have to take flat-lays of eyeshadows. Trying not to get burnt out is hard... and I'm falling out of love with Instagram. 

My 2019 is going to include travel, meeting new friends, saving for a mortgage and moving on with my life in the best way I know how - blasting thank u, next by Ariana Grande.

What are your plans for 2019? 



Wednesday, 5 December 2018


soap & glory 2018 star gift bubble act zuki limited edition set

Every year, I make sure to set my alarm for certain days.
Black Friday.
Starbucks Christmas menu.
Costa Christmas menu.
Missguided 50% off.
... You get me.

And of course, Soap & Glory’s Star Gift goes live for half price at Boots. Every girl gets one of these for Christmas, so it's no surprise that the waiting list exceeded 100,000 people this year!

 The individual items are worth over £80 when purchased separately, so this is one that is set to sell out very quickly! I always love the S&G sets as they tide me over for months and months, and it looks like this year S&G are offering some small extras such as the sheet mask, dry shampoo and a couple of make-up bits! I'm not really a huge fan of the mascara, but it's giftable for someone else, so win-win!

What's even better, is the tin. It's designed by graphic designer, art director and illustrator Zuki. The tin is quite large, so would impress anyone if gifted around this time of year. 

Inside you'll get...


The Righteous Body Butter [300ml]

♡ Clean On Me Creamy Moisture Shower Gel [500ml]

♡ The Scrub of Your Life Smoothing Body Buffer [200ml]

♡ Hand Food Non-greasy Hydrating Hand Cream [250ml]

♡ Fizz-A-Ball Original Pink Bath Bomb [100g]

♡ Original Pink Body Spray [100ml]

♡ Melty Talented Dry Skin Balm [30g]

♡ Peaches and Clean Deep Cleansing Milk [350ml]

♡ Bright + Beautiful Radiance-Boosting Mask [29g]

♡ The Rushower Dry Shampoo [200ml]

♡ Sexy Mother Pucker Lip Gloss in Bare Enough [7ml]

♡ Thick and Fast High-Definition Collagen-Coat Mascara in Black [10ml]

I'm really looking forward to trying the dry shampoo and the skin balm! I do wish that they had included a big pot of the scrub but I'm pretty sure I will be buying another gift set when the January sale hits if they have some left, so I'm still very pleased with 2018's offer for Soap and Glory's star gift!

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